Maybe it should just be over?

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So me and my boyfriend have been together for 3 months(next thursday is 3mnths). I think i love him, but im very confused lately. We have a great relationship and he is the first gentleman I have ever met that knows how to treat a woman and respects her. Obviously I dont see the problem. He is everything I want and more, we have a lot in common, and we both volunteer together at the local fire department and work in the emergency medical services. I've been living with him since January 8th and things are okay i guess, the thing is he lives in his moms house with his grandmother and we have the upstairs apartment(it is a 3 apartment duplex, his mom lives on the other side of us.) He is 28, ill be 20 next month. I understand his argument for still living at home, its exspensive to be on your own and he has NO bills except his cell phone and truck insurance and he buys food for him and me. But i just think its time to be responsible and independent and be on our own, the only way he will move out is if i get pregnant then we HAVE to move. I dont feel that I should have to get pregnant to have my own place with the one i love. A lot that he has been doing is bothering me, he always brings up a girl in our firehouse that is on the ladies auxillary that he wishes he could have dated and been with....not exactly something you discuss with your girlfriend you "supposingly love". I know he loves me, he tells me atleast 30times a day(no exaggeration either unfortunately lol. Aside from the not moving out thing he sucks with his money, i understand he has never had a real relationship or anything so he isnt used to living with someone he has to pay for....BUT his last paycheck he spent $700 of it on a friggen gun(AR-15 to be exact)...and then $100 went to his truck and then there was about $20 left after he went out and bought sodas from the gas station down the road every day...when he just went out and bought a sodamaker for almost $100. AND...we were out of food so NO MONEY FOR FOOD; he borrowed $200 from his mom...they paycheck b4 that he didnt have enough money for food either and borrowed from his grandmother. UGH!!

Ive tried talking with him about all of this but it doesnt do anything. I love him..

even though he gets to be a pain in my rear.

I have been thinking a lot lately about just ending it because i just feel like im not good enough for him and he deserves so much more, the other night we got into an argument and he told me he wants to be with someone who will talk out their problems with him even if it has nothing to do with them not someone like me...obviously it hurt but that was a key factor to prove my point that im not good enough!!!!!!
He is ALWAYS talking to these 2 girls, which i dont care or anything but when we first started dating i was on his fb playing a game and she popped up and said hi to him and right above her "hey" message was their convo from a few days before, he stated he wanted to do stuff with her...but in his favor he said he couldnt cheat on me. But still it just scares me that he will do something and that he doesnt really love me.

 
By Jessica412 on Sat, 02-25-12, 21:17

SORRY MY INTERNET LAGGED AND DOUBLE POSTED!

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By sweetie1986 on Sun, 02-26-12, 17:04

I don't think he's ready to be in a commited relationship from the information you posted. I believe that a man will Profess, Provide, and Protect a woman he sees in his future. The fact that he refuses to move out with you unless you are pregnant shows that he's not really planning his future with you. I think you have every right to be upset about seeing that he wanted to do stuff with another girl. That is NOT acceptable in any way. On one side it has only been 3 months since you were together, so it seems a little too soon to get a place of your own. But on the other side it's not ok for him to be talking to these other girls in the way that he has been.

I would say if there's any way for you to move out on your own, do it. I know it's hard, but I think that it'd be worth it. If he asks why, just tell him that if he wants to be in your life that you expect more out of him. You expect him to step up and be the man that you deserve. You expect him to help take care of you (Provide), not talk to other women the way he has been and let other women know that he is taken (Profess) and not do things that he knows is going to hurt you (Protect). Otherwise, you'll be moving on with your life. And to let him know that you're serious, start getting applications from apartments. You don't actually have to turn them in until you find out more, but at least let him see you filling them out so he knows you're serious. Good luck to you!!

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By Jessica412 on Mon, 02-27-12, 07:28

Thanks! He does a great job taking care of me, he is the only real income and he tries to get me whatever, but I wont let him buy me anything unless it is TRULY needed or unless I can pay him back. Hes always willing to lend a shoulder to cry on or talk with me...I just cant talk to him about some stuff because I am scared...I grew up with a mother that if I tried talking about something Id just get screamed at and told its all my fault or something negative, im trying hard to work on it...but it aggrevates the crap outta him. We got in an argument Thursday because I was super upset all day and I even cried a few times and I just couldn't tell him why, so he told me he wants to be with someone who can talk to him and tell him their problems not someone like me who keeps it bottled up inside. I told him that it had nothing to do with him(partially true) and that I dont want to burden him with my problems or drag him in.

Yesterday we talked a bit(over text...yes we were in the same house LOL) and he stated that he loves me a lot and he wants to be here for me through the good and the bad and even if he does get pissed off sometimes he isn't leaving and hes in it for the long haul. He said that him and his family are here for me(my other posts explain...long story short, my mother disowned me Saturday) so I don't have any family bc my grandfather on my moms side died and my grandmother hates my guts(seriously) and my other family on moms side are either dead or live too far away...and my biological father well hes in and out of the picture bc my mother.(also in my other post). I love my boyfriend, I truly do, im just going crazy living here because nothing works properly "our" apartment above his grams....no shower, no stove/oven, no fridge and the heat barely works. So we have to use his grandmothers stove and his mothers oven and the fridge downstairs and freezer outside....to me thats not how you should live...yeah it works and its better than on the streets but UGH! I truly could not move out on my own right now because I have but $212 a month from TANF a monthly income program for people from the state....been applying here and there and today I might actually apply at a restraunt for a waitressing job since it is literally at the end of my street and I do not have a license/car.

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